because they've got me in a bad way

Stupid class production. At least it's just for the two classes that are reading the same book. Even so it's ridiculous. Well, it'll be all over after Monday. I've already gotten in trouble for not memorizing my lines, so I should probably try to do that. Like I really need more homework. Tykiiiii, will you help me? Please? Family should be helpful!

As for this Valentine's day thing, I'm not all that impressed. The only good part about this whole holiday is the candies. I don't see the point of the rest of it. Ugh, really. Unless... Allen? ♥ Will you be my Valentine?

...you're kidding me. This isn't even funny. Ugh. It happened yesterday and I'm still upset about it. It's not fair at all. I'm going to have to do so much work because of this. I don't need any more homework. It's just pointless. I mean, I couldn't even stomach reading the play to begin with. Damnit. What's the point of putting on a class production of it anyway? We're in high school, not grade school. It's a big part of our grade too, and I don't want to wind up having to go to summer school again. I don't know why my teacher hates me so much to stick me with the biggest part in the stupid play anyway? I didn't even sign up to participate. But she says I need to take a more active role and have a better attitude in class.

I don't have time for this.

Hmph. That's it. I'm having fun tonight at least. Me and an akuma [deleted] a friend are going to go out.

Shakespeare. Huh. What the hell am I reading this for? It's not just that it's hard to read, but the story of it is ridiculous "Romeo & Juliet" Really, what sort of plot is this? Some guy sees this girl at a party and just falls in love with her? Despite the fact that their families are enemies. Who falls in love that quickly anyway? It's stupid.

And then. THEN. They come up with this completely ridiculous plot to trick their families, instead of just, I don't know, running away like normal people? And they both kill themselves because of love. That's just not realistic at all. It's complete nonsense. This is the worst thing we've read for class yet.

This place has been way too boring to be honest. Everyone is so content and living in their silly little routines. People are even complaining about such stupid little annoyances. It's disgusting, really. Not a single ounce of tragedy in the entire place. I'd do something about it, really, stir things up. But I have more important things to do... for now anyway. Sometimes you have to wait to do things you want to do; that's the adult lesson of life. And I have plans. They should be fun once they turn out. I hate being patient though. It'll be a party. I'll have to buy invitations!

In the meantime, tomorrow I'm going shopping. I need a new dress. And new shoes too, I think. Something pretty.

I had fun the other day playing in the snow. Thank you, Pearl, for coming with me. It was a good time. No windows broke though. Oh well. There's always next time. I'm glad it's the weekend. I don't think I could deal with having any more class work or homework right now. I'm overdue for some fun, really.

What I don't like though is being spoken to rudely. Stupid exorcist. I'll just have to show him. That's all. I can do that.

In fact, I've been far too boring and well behaved lately. That will have to change. There are games to be played, and no reason to let the playing pieces go to waste.

Blah. I liked vacation a lot better. School is really just plain boring. I still don't see the point of my going, but whatever. I guess it's not all so bad. It's boring and I have better things to do. Like ice skating! I just bought new ice skates, and it's certainly cold enough. Tyki, I think you should take me. It's best to do these things using the buddy system.

Also I think I'll take some time to throw snowballs at the exorcists' windows. That'll be fun. Maybe one will break :D

Halloween is coming up! I love Halloween! It's a lot of fun. And candy is always good too.

But first I have some other fun to have! I think tonight is a good night for it.

Well that's funny. It actually works. I think I like it. Hahahaha. It should be even more fun now that I know how to make it work. I'll have to play with it again. But that'll have to wait until later.

A lot more fun than class anyway. What a pain school is. I don't really feel like doing my homework today. It's nice outside. I think I'll go... play for a while before I get to work tonight. I do have lots of things to do tonight, after all.

Another school year.

I need someone to be my tutor. Orthis year is not going to go well at all. So who wants to help me?

Tykiiiii you need to take me shopping, ok? I'm taking a dance class this fall so I need some stuff for it. Dance has got to be more fun than the other music classes. Much less boring. So I'm going to be a dancer. What do you think, Tyki? Is it a good idea? Well, I think it is, so I guess that's what counts.

I don't want school to start. :( Summer hasn't been nearly long enough. I don't wanna go at all. Homework is so awful and boring.

Still some summer left to enjoy. I'm going to go to the beach tomorrow. I should find someone to go with me. It's never fun to have to play alone.

This isn't interesting either.

Allen did you forget how to be interesting now? Really, that's the only thing that's too bad. Well, that and Pearl seemed sad. Other than that, it's all just boring.

I'll be at the beach. It's too nice a day to waste with all the mess that's been made here. Besides, I just got a new swimsuit. There's no time like now to try it out, right? Right. Too bad I don't have any one to come and play with me.

[The journal goes flying across the room, hitting the wall and fluttering down to a pile, open face down at the bottom of it. Road storms over and stomps a foot in front of it. For the moment she is acting very much like the little girl she actually is.]

I don't like this. I don't like any of it at all. Those things are awful and annoying. Why can't someone just make this stop?

Really, it's kind of pretty. But I'm bored by all this. Who's behind it and what's the point?

Hmm. I wonder if I should go out and see for myself.

I shouldn't have watched that movie. I didn't like it at all. Now I can't sleep.

Tyki? Can I come stay with you?

This sucks. I want to do something fun. Playing the other day was good. The akuma got lots of practice finding people, which is always good..

But now I'm bored. There's no one around to play with. I can't even find Lero.

I guess I'll have to make my own fun.

Summertime is the best time! And I don't have to go to summer school this year, which is even better.

This calls for a celebration, I think. Maybe a game! Does anybody want to play?

Spring time! I think I need new dresses, for the nice weather. I should get someone to take me shopping. Tykiiiiiiii. Will you come with me? I don't want to go alone. That sounds boring, really. Besides, we should spend more time together. We are family after all.

Don't you tell me I need to make friends my own age either. I don't want to hear about it. Then again, maybe I should see about making a few new playmates. It couldn't hurt, could it?

Home. Or well, back in general. This is as good as home for now anyway. Much better than that awful place. That awful, awful place. I don't want to...


( Private; Allen )

[[ The little girl -- who very often acted more like a sadistic monster than any sort of child -- is curled up at the top of her cot, leaning back against the wall. Her knees are drawn up to her chest tightly, and her arms are wrapped around them tightly. Her head is buried there as well. She looks smaller than usual, like the young girl she really is. She is silent, but the shaking of her shoulders betray the fact that she is not just trying to get some rest. She is crying, her small body more and more wracked by sobs as time goes on.

This isn't right. She can't get out of here. Her family isn't here. And she can't do a thing about it. Feeling so powerless has gotten to her.]]

Weekend! Weekend weekend! Much better than school days. But I'm still kind of bored. Maybe I should find something to do. Really, I need a new toy. My old one was a lot of fun -- even more fun once I gave it back, actually, but now I need something else to do. Hmm. I'll have to think something up!

I don't mind my new room so much even if moving was definitely a pain, on top of homework and everything. My roommate's name is Cloud. Huh. Not that I've seen him around, but I've been playing in my own space anyway.

Oh, Bella? I did good on that test you helped me study for. Do you think you could help me again?